Moment in Time

Time plays funny things with your mind
The good moments seem to fly by
Before you have time to blink
And you store them deep in your memory
Until something brings them back
And you smile or even laugh out loud
And just the moments when you remember
And your heart feels the same feeling
Makes the moment that flew by last
Just a little longer in your heart
And you realize that the moment passed
But the memory will always be there
And no one can take that away from you
That’s what our moments are for me
The things that happen when we are together
And even though we are apart now
I still carry those laughs, smiles, and sometimes tears
In my heart and deep in my mind
And when I have days that seem to drag on
And all I can think about is getting them over with
Something happens to me to remind me of you
And a moment in time that you
Brought something into my world that made me laugh
So hard that I will never forget it
Or feel so good about myself
That it makes me feel so good about myself over again
Or tears that I needed to shed or we shed together
That was just what I needed at that moment
I just want you to know that you are in my memory
And although those moments in time fly by so fast
You and our moments will last forever in my heart

through my smile

Through my smile
Everything is ok
My stars are in line,
The world is turning my way
But through my tears
I am walking away
From what I need most
I’ve seemed to have lost my way

Through my smile
Nothing stands in my way
I’m following my dreams
On the most beautiful of days
But through my tears
My fears they do stay
I’ve lost the reason to be
And yet there’s no reason to pray

Through my smile
Hopefully will come a day
When I can feel that it’s real
And my heart will be ok
And through my tears
I will be able to say
That this is the best it could ever be
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You Touch Me

You touch me with your hands so strong
Rough on the outside But smooth as silk against my skin
Wrapping my hand inside yours and my hair through your fingers

You touch me with your eyes dark as night
They see the real me, depths it takes me days to see
Watching me with wild exotic passion and intense love

You touch me with your words
All the right lyrics find their way into my soul
Whispers, laughs, and singing they all take me away

You touch me with your lips
Unexpected kisses against my skin
Your smile Brings my world to life

You touch me with your love
Something I thought I could never feel
I will never forget the feeling I have

You touch me with your spirit
Not even having a chance yet to Be set free
You hold Back so much and I can’t wait for you to share it all with me

You touch me with your song
Making the songs in our hearts finally Become one
The song in your heart Beats in time with mine

You touch me
In more ways that I can ever put down on paper
But I’m never going to stop trying till you understand
How you touch me

True Love Song

I know in my soul that every true love song begins and ends in us
So many years passed and our love never died
So much distance in between and the timing is never right
Can you feel my heart? It beats in time with yours
Against all things possible you and I were meant to be
I heard somewhere that love is friendship on fire
We have a fire that never stopped burning
As strong as the wind has blown it cant be put out
Tell me how two hearts that are meant to be,
Never come together at the right time.
Hearing your voice singing your love for me
My cheek resting in your hands, your lips against mine
Just looking into your eyes was like we were right back there again
The world stopped spinning and all that was left was us
We took the chance we missed out on, but it can never be enough.
Star crossed lovers and yet our paths never seem to cross

Ive spent my whole life looking for that one true love song meant for me
I shouldve known all along that I could find that in you.
Still I sit here tonight, lyrics and music blowing through my heart and soul
Knowing one day it will lead me once again to you, because
I know in my heart that every true love song begins and ends in us

he

he sings
he laughs
he holds my hand
he guides me around a corn mealed floor
he trusts
he plays
he watches
he smiles
he is truth
he kisses
he drinks
he can break it down
he cares
he dreams
he is smart
he is jealous
he makes love
he wishes
he wants children
he cooks
he makes time
he loves his mom
he wants daizy too
he knows my eyes
he wants me
he knows me
he is in love with me
he knows what i'm not saying
he feels my pain
he lets me give
he helps me clean
he makes me smile
he loves my laugh
he is handsome
he doesn't change
he whispers my name
he
does not exist

Baby Girl

I've watched my brothers and sisters
Raise their beautiful babies
Waiting and wanting for a child of my own
But I never thought that day would come

I've been waiting
Hoping and lots of praying
To hold you in my arms
So many years have come and passed
And finally the moment is here

You have his nose
And your Grandpa's chin
When you opened those big blue eyes
I was sucked right in

I've been waiting
Hoping and lots of praying
To hold you in my arms
So many years have come and passed
And finally the moment is here

Every day is a miracle
All my dreams have come true
To see you smile and hear your laugh
Every day is something new

My beautiful baby girl
The waiting is finally gone
You are right here in my arms
And I'll never let you go
I will never let you go

Dec. 23, 2005

Can you?

Can you kiss me again like that?
Wild, like you've only been kissed once,
and it's been all you could think about for years
being deprived of wet kisses.

Can you kiss me again like that?
With your hands around my face,
and your thumb on my lip,
like you not only want to feel it with your lips,
but your fingers too.

Can you kiss me again like that?
Slow and passionate and yet at the same time
hard and exotic, like you are kissing me
with your entire body.

Can you kiss me again like that?
When tongue and teeth do all the right things,
and it's not just kisses with your lips,
as if your body takes on a life of it's own
and it's language of choice is that.

Can you kiss me again like that?
like you will be the last man I ever kiss
and each time is something new and different
and making me want to come back for more.

I'm numb

I want to feel love for you,
I want to fly,
I want to hate you,
I want to dance,
I want to be jealous of you,
I want to be with you, but I can't move,
I want to feel your touch,
I want to smile,
I want to say good bye,
I want to walk with you,
I want to cry, but no tears come,
I want to hold you,
I want to laugh,
I want to share with you,
I want to stop the addiction to me,
I want to scream,
I want to breathe,
I want to let you go,
I want to run,
I want to sleep,
I want to sing,
but I can't,


I'm numb

so nice

knowing i want to

before you ask

your hand

on the small of my back

my fingers on your neck

our hands together

against your heart

the feel of your cheek

against mine

knowing both our eyes

are closed

no one on the dance floor

but us

moving in perfect unison

and topping it all off

your singing in my ear

i never knew slow dancing

could be so nice

and i've never longed

for a song to last forever

like i did that night

Destined to be Single

i'm destined to be single
that's just who i have to be
it's what's in the plan
it's all that i can see

i'm destined to be single
and nothings gunna change
i'm avoiding men at all costs
like they are talking dogs with mange

i'm destined to be single
no more hooking up with guys
as if there was hooking going on
and not sat nights alone with exausted sighs

i'm destined to be single
the puddings in the proof
just doesn't sound right does it
that's right i am a big ol' goof

i'm destined to be single
and that's alright with me
so you can flirt and buy me that drink
but for now it's just me and Daizy

just another night without you

just another night without you
i pretend it's no big deal
going through the motions
trying not to watch the seconds turn to minutes

pretending the sunsets aren't

as beautiful as they could be

until i see them through your eyes

they aren't real to me

just another night without you

can you tell i'm faking a smile

i wouldn't say it's living

but it should last for another little while

are you just a day dream

or someone i will really find

can this fairy tale be truth

or is it all in my mind

just another night without you

i think i'm moving on

finding the beauty in a sunrise

the fake just might be gone

i'm tired of the lonely pain

the pictures with only a grey hue

i need to see the gorgeous colors

just another night without you

Happy Singles Awareness Day!!

Like we all need another day to proclaim our love for someone!!! Aren't we supposed to be doing that every day?? I mean I just don't get it... those of us who try to pretend the day doesn't exist end up getting little gifts all day long that just make us feel worse about not getting them something. Like we did think about doing, but like I said... still pretending the day doesn't exist!!

I don't even want to turn on my radio on the way home from work because I know their only going to be playing stupid love songs over and over and over and over...

I can't watch TV because even the Death Metal channel will be doing some sort of LOVE THEME!!! Basically I've come to the realization that you just can't ignore the day.. the best thing to do is go into hiding... but you have to hide long enough for the people you work with to think you aren't coming back and just go ahead and eat the candy some happily NOT single person left on your desk while you were gone...

And don't think that just because I'm alone for V-day this year is the reason I'm saying this.. no ma'am... Birthdays, Christmas, Anniversaries... I mean.. why make another day when someone is expected to do something else for someone... WE SHOULD BE DOING SWEET THINGS ALL THE TIME!!!

Who cares about tradition... traditions, like rules, are meant to be broken!!! Maybe we should start a HAPPY SINGLES DAY!!!! BE PROUD TO BE SINGLE!!!! I think that's a great idea!!! A day when all the people who are madly in love bring the happily single people gifts!!! And say "aren't you lucky to be single!!" and "man I'm so jealous of how happy you are not needing someone else to make you happy!!"

OK! OK! I've said my piece.. I'll let it go and move on... holla

thoughts

The thought of what you could be

keeps me going every day

but all the miles between us

seem to make them go away

The thought of what I could be

seem to make you want to stay

but as time passes so slowly

things aren't going to go your way

The thought of what we could be

gives me comfort in some way

the truth is that it never will

be anything but thoughts

and they too will fade away

I can't do this alone

The day is finally here

All the plans have been laid

Dad lights the candle in your place

A single tear runs down his face

I can't do this alone

Go through another special day without you

You should've been there

But instead you are here

By this beautiful stone

I can't do this alone

The day is finally here

We named her after you

Her daddy can't seem to get me through

The pain I still feel without you

I can't do this alone

Go through another special day without you

You should've been there

But instead you are here

By this beautiful stone

I can't do this alone

9/26/05

goodbye

Just turned 21 with a baby in her arms

sending a bad one out the door

25 with a whole new life

learning to work on herself

trying to hold on

to one that doesn't care

just turned 44 and feeling alone

watching her baby leave home

to start a life of his own

three of us sitting together and feeling alone

so many words of comfort spoken

but won't change our mind

new men come and go

but none worthy to be called dad

and there she sits

still alone and feeling sad

no man is worthy

or anywhere close to compare

but he'll do for tonight

and in the morning

when she wakes up she knows

it won't be right

the ones that are there

are just there to fill

the loss she feels in the air

tell us how to cure

the empty feeling inside

the one that comes and goes

but is always too hard to hide

someone fill this void

and fill it up high

cause before the night is over

our hearts will always say goodbye

9/7/05

im in love?

you think you know me

but you don't have a clue

all you see is what you want me to be

and what my fingers can do

you think you know me

but all you really know

are the words that i type

and the phrases i say

you think you know me

but how can that truely be

we've never even met

looked into the others eyes

never touched never kissed

you think you know me

but all you really see

are these words that are written

they aren't me

they are what you want them to be